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The hummingbird spirit animal symbolizes the enjoyment of life and lightness of being. Those who have the hummingbird as a totem are invited to enjoy the sweetness of life, lift up negativity wherever it creeps in and express love more fully in their daily endeavors. This fascinating bird is capable of the most amazing feats despite its small size, such as traveling great distances or being able to fly backwards. By affinity with the hummingbird, those who have this bird as totem may be encouraged to develop their adaptability and resiliency while keeping a playful and optimistic outlook. 

Amy Glass, posted an article on the thought catalog about men who cheat and women who let their physical selves go, and I actually read through many of the comments because, strangely enough there was a synchronicity to the timing of the subject, which in my mind has nothing to do with cheating men and out of shape woman, but everything to do with the epidemic of a lack of self-awareness and reactionary disconnection:

WOW! this how we connect now? I started out  just going online to check my emails and was suddenly sidetracked by this article, and I am now questioning my priorities and regretting the time I wasted. Is this how we hope to have our voices heard? Through a reactionary retort to some random online blog. I'm guilty of reactionary disconnection. Recently, having woken up teary in bed, I made myself a cup of coffee and decided I needed to write a letter to my husband, feeling disconnected from many things, not just him. By the end of my letter, through the expression of my thoughts and emotions, I felt reconnected to a lightness of I could get on with enjoying my life. Through reflection I realized that our habits, after 28 years of marriage, are not who we are. All this online connection disconnects me. I need human connection. I don't want to automatically turn on the television anymore...I want my husband to teach me how to play chess, and I don't want to be so busy that I can't stop and sit and talk and listen. I want to read the Sunday paper together, and share indepth conversations, and to cherish the simple pleasure that comes to us from making eachother laugh.





I want to really FEEL his hand when we're holding hands because I need his touch, and I don't want regrets or to be uncomfortable with getting old and with wrinkles and grey hair. Wisdom and age are a thousand times more beautiful than anything. I realized all this through writing a letter. I have loved being a stay at home mom, and I feel blessed that I was able to be a stay at home mom. It was my choice and now I have the choice to continue learning new things every day. My relationships are the most important thing in my life. Change is more rapid than ever, but I won't allow my priorities to change. Marriage is hard, but so are all relationships. They demand so much more than our disconnected partial attention. They deserve our attention and patience and time. Like the hummingbird we need to learn to travel great distances and sometimes even be able to fly backwards, to lift up our negativity and express our love more fully throughout our daily lives.  Writing allows me to pause and clarify things. When I feel emotionally and physically connected my life is so much better. We have the ability to be more fulfilled and connected if we challenge ourselves to be openminded and receptive. We live in a world that can seem to be dominated by pressure and negativity... Practice the lightness of being, and enjoy the sweetness of life. Diconnect and write a letter to someone you love and become reconnected.  

I've been reviewing The Artist's way, by Julia Cameron. Maybe Amy Glass needs to sign up for Julia's spiritual path to a higher creativity. 

 Yesterday I photographed this hummingbird ornament. I couldn't bring myself to put it away, and now its all coming together. The hummingbird ornament symbolizes the lifting up of negativity,  the enjoyment of life and the lightness of being, which for me were recently reclaimed by turning off my computer, writing a letter, and rereading The Artist's Way. If we pay attention, connections are everywhere.